continued from part 1...
He ever told me about "People's change". When I hear those words, I got mixed feeling. I don't know whether what I'm doing at that time was a good sign or not. I just prepared myself for anything that may happen. God gives us choices right? So I choose to continue the relationship. That terms did happened when the real situation occured. At that time, I know how it feels.
"People's change" is a deep meaning, isn't it? He proved the terms to me. Trust me guys. People can change just within a second or less. When the situation occured, I thought I was strong enough to bear all of it. I burst out to tears like flash flood the moment I finally manage to call him by my own. I know it sounds silly but that's the truth.
Anyway, let me talk a bit about him :) He's the most favourite and best man I ever had. He got dimples and I love it! Yeah, I love a man who has dimples. It's cute anyway. When we were together, I'm the water, he's the fire. (you know what I meant) At the moment I knew him, I really wanna do so much things together with him just like other couples do. Having dates, celebrating birthdays and anniversary, travelling and so on. I can blend everything well with him although there's some things I never confront with. I miss who he is in those memories.
I love him. Both of us did felt something special within us which until now we didn't know what it is. But what I know, I love him. I felt freedom whenever I said I love him. One thing I felt bless when we're togehter, I manage to guide him to control his tempered. In Jesus Christ's name, I'm glad that I'm doing a good responsibility as his girlfriend before. He's a hot tempered person before I met him but never thought he would listen to me. (opps! I heard that man always have their ego conquer them. hehehe.) To build a relationship has to look after each other, right? That's the thing made me did not want to lose hope and kept loving him constantly.
Unfortunately, there's something I cannot avoid. I guess I'm loving somebody else in my own fairytale. He rather chose the other path while I'm still standing at the path where he left me. I do miss all the sweet memories. Hmm...missing the person? I prefer the one that I knew from the first time I met.
And now :) I am still standing strong after what had happened although it was tough like hell before. Currently, I still have one and a half year or maybe less to complete my Bachelor's. Then, I'll find a job that suits me. I will keep planning my sweet escape at anytime. I'm still figure out something to get my alternative income.
Therefore, I want to do what I wanna do and keep exploring new life's. I hate to say this but let God do His part whether I should or should not have a new future relationship. If me, I don't want it anymore. Wasting my time to share something I should do with my couple but then it is worthless. My advise is just wait until the right time and get married. I guess that's much better. But on 2nd thought, it's a no no. Phfff!
Last but not least, I hope you guys enjoy reading my 2nd entry. What I'm sharing is my own opinion. No offence! I'm sorry if I said the harsh words. I didn't meant it. Have a bless day, readers. God bless you guys :)
Regards,
Byee
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